The God Dilemma

The God Dilemma

Hello my lovelies,

I want to pick up where I left off, with the whole God thing. I don’t know whether you believe in a God or not, and I know the saying, “there are 3 things you don’t talk about, money, politics and religion,” but God is a major part of my story and if I leave him out, the story doesn’t make sense.

My Dad believes in God, but doesn’t go to church. We don’t talk about it, and until 6 months ago I had no idea that he did, but he does, and he believes that God loves us. My sister used to come to church with me, but she says she doesn’t believe in God. I don’t believe her. I’ve found paintings of the cross in her bedroom, and she’s been known to explain to her friends that God loves and accepts them just the way they are. I think she’s frightened that if she admits that God exists she’ll have to jump through hoops to please him, or that she won’t be good enough so he won’t accept her.

Please don’t think I’m being desperate by assuming this about my sister; I know these are issues that she’s had to deal with in other areas of her life growing up and it stands to reason she’d have to face them when considering the possibility that God exists. They are issues that I’ve had to face – am still facing – with God too, and sometimes I’ve thought that it would be easier to believe that God doesn’t exist than to believe that he could love me and accept me as I am. I guess I’m afraid that God will decide I’m not good enough for him, and reject me.

The Bible says that God is both all-powerful and all-loving, but I struggle with that. If he’s all-powerful and all-loving, then why does he allow people to suffer? I imagine the ferry that sank with the Korean school children desperately trying to escape, texting parents telling them that they love them for the final time, crying with fear and watching as their friends die before their eyes. I wonder how an all-powerful and all-loving God could watch that happen, and not be filled with so much pain for those children that he could not help but intervene and save them.

I don’t think my Mum believes in God, and now she’s dying, that raises a lot of big questions for me. Like what happens when she dies? If she doesn’t believe in God, where does she go? Will she go to Hell? Will I ever see her again?

Some Christians are very clear in what they believe about Heaven and Hell, but I’m not so sure. If God is all-loving, how could he create someone and then condemn them to an eternity of suffering? It just doesn’t add up.

In some of my future posts, I will be asking more questions about God and exploring different ideas. Please feel free to join the discussion and add what you think to the comments below.


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One thought on “The God Dilemma

  1. Let me first say I’m so sorry for what you, your mom, and your family are dealing with. I am myself terminal and it’s heartbreaking to see the effects of it on your loved ones. As far as your God questions, if you don’t mind me interjecting, I’ll admit it does seem a little confusing. But one of the gifts God gave us is free will, so we can choose to believe or not and with that is the acceptance that He doesn’t send us anywhere, we choose to go. God is all-powerful and loving, but He is also a holy God meaning without sin. That’s the reason He sent Jesus, so that we would have a means to get to Him, even though we all fall short of being holy like Him. The Bible tells us all of this, but I know how confusing all of this seemed to me when I was first a believer 7 years ago. I’m certainly not trying to sound like a know-it-all, just trying to help clarify I guess. I will be praying for your family, thank you for being so honest and vulnerable ❤

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